She thinks it's just sex and that we're otherwise a normal married couple, but, damn it

She thinks it's just sex and that we're otherwise a normal married couple, but, damn it! Me being a cuckold has shook me, changes me to my very core! I can't look at my wife without thinking of that other man fucking her. Sucking her breasts. Blowing his cum deep inside her! Even when she's playing around like now, just hanging from a tree, I think she's really hanging on his cock.

Rubbing her breasts. Her wet crotch. Licking it up and down! I can't live a normal life: EVERYTHING reminds me she's NOT having sex with me and she IS having sex with HIM!!! And it makes me love her. Want to be with her. And desire her all the more, because I know no matter what, I don't have her 100%.

Want to be with her