She will never again want me as her lover

I stood silently at the foot of her bed (used to be our bed]. They were both asleep, covers over their bodies except for their legs, which were intertwined around each other.

My heart sank as I realized that although my wife says she loves me and wants me as her husband, she will never again want me as her lover, as I have not been in her bed for the last 3 years. They began to stir, so I took my leave and headed off to work, a sadness inside my core that will never leave, and a small voice I inside me that said: YOU wanted this.

I have not been in her bed for the last 3 years